Spark o Life

Spark of fries - Circa 2006

As of late, I've been mildly obsessively writing journal entries in my totally self-indulgent Livejournal that I've had since 2004 (full of high school crushes and drama) and in my actual paper journal. Been doing some soul searching annd have yet to find the purpose of my soul, but at least I'm working on it.

The overlying theme is that over the course of the past few months of life I've lost my spark for life. I've always had it, and it was never a truly optimistic spark either...but rather a biting, humorous, adventurous purpose for life. But now...it has gone. I've been trying to attribute a reason to the disappearance of sparky, but who knows really!

Do you want me to share the possibilities? Prob not, but I will anyway...
-Graduation is in sight, and I fear the zombie corporate world
-Online dating was a fun novelty, but now bores me
-Obsession with raw foodism and all things healthy sucking my soul (working to stop this, I swear)
-Not having enough time to spend with people I adore in life
-Feeling like I'm working so hard right now with no definitive reason why in the future.

Made some goals for the meantime though: Create art, Write in blog or journal (self-indulgence only for now), make more time for friends. End. Bye.

I haaavvveee to post about holidays. Out of pure pseudo-blogger obligation.

Sooo oh oh oh Valentines Day. I love bringing it up and watching people's reactions to it....generally the negative ones because I like to try and read through people's hatred of the holiday to the essence of why they are so bitter. I got 2 Valentines date proposals (possibly 3, I had a suspicion someone was asking me very subtley but I was too naive to realize. Maybe. Probably not.). These proposals were very nice and I'm sure would have been a fine time, but this year I wasn't up for the show of glitz n Vday glam with someone I don't truly care about.


I've been into the caring about people thing lately, which is weird. Usually I don't care.

Sooo oh oh I spent the night with those that I truly do adore and cherish. Wine, board games, heart-shaped pizza.

Epic Battlegrounds

So go spend time with people you love and buy a heart-shaped pizza for them to show your affection :D

ahmazing artiste

Stumbled across this ...

This is my kinda art. Bright, shiny, bold, immersed in real life. This is from an exhibit at the NY Botanical Garden a few years ago.

Now on the prowl to see his work in real life. Check www.chihuly.com .